It's time.

Time flies. It's going to be 2012 very soon.. :) I've made my decision. I don't know whether my decision is right or wrong? I've been thinking lately whether to do it or not, but I guess I'll leave it alone. I've plan something , nothing much, just a surprise . But I guess it will remain as a secret and shall not be known. The reason I make this decision is not because I give up easily, is because I doesn't want to disturb both of your happiness and also I have to move on too right? :) . And also I know hadn't been a very good boyfriend and what I do always hurt you. Is enough, I don't want to see you hurt anymore. All I want is you to be HAPPY. I know he'll be a better boyfriend than me. Make sure he do, if he doesn't treat my precious 1 good and make sure she's always happy, I wouldn't be happy.  But I believe that if you're mine then you will be mine. But now is not, so is better not to disturb.( This is what I feel) .However, in my heart, I'm still in love with you. Never decrease yet :) . But I've took out the necklace ring. Otherwise, I couldn't let go of you and couldn't forget the memories. But I'm keeping it safe with me here. I'll keep it as a memory for 06/10/2006... Or maybe one day , we're together back again, I'll wear it. If we're fated :). I've never been a good boyfriend but I will learn from my mistake. Letting you go for your own happiness. This can be another way of loving. All I wish both of you will be loving each other and also hope he take good care of you. I'm sure he will. :) No worries. Remember to smile. We are still friends, of course. You can look for me anytime , if you need. I don't mind. All the best , all i can say for now.. hehehehe!! SMILE.. Remember to be happy. Stay strong. Be the last time you okay!? hehehe.. You're Tea Pei Nee, nothing is impossible for you.. :) I know you can!''

Hohoho~! Btw, Merry Christmas! :) 

Happy Go Lucky!

Stay Lame (You're lame too, sometimes , tsk tsk tsk)

Always Smile.

Miracles will happen once in a lifetime.:) Smiling is always the best policy to overcome every problems you have. -Always smile- :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) quote by : Kelvin Say

The journey of Miracles

Working life is tiring~! :) But got to learn things about MCM - Multi Channel Marketing. There's many more to learn... At least, I can spend my time by working , better than staying at home doing nothing. It helps to make the time fly even faster. There are 7 of us doing Internship in Parkson. Works start from 8.15 to 5.45... Always trying to get my ass off the bed by setting alarm on 6.30 and i would definitely drag till 6.50 only i start waking up.. *Lazy & Tired*
 
      Sometimes memories just flashback all of sudden, and it doesn't make me sad anymore.. I feel happy because I have such a beautiful memories with you , my first one. :) Never regret on loving you since 2005 till now. I said once, is a miracle that you accepted me, I never thought you will be my first one because I always think is impossible to get you.. Impossible is possible.. It's cute sometime to think back on how i chase you.. I remember I love to tease you since 2005 when you are a prefect in primary school... So cute right? Then I start to fall for you. But i continue teasing you. Then one day, I make my move by getting your phone number through you friend.. Then from that day onwards, we start sms-ing.. We sms till late at night, challenging each other and bet with each other.. But guess, I am the so call-ed "Loser" .. Cause I always lose :( We bet who will fall asleep 1st and it was always me.. I'm a pig ^@^ .. hehehe... I remember my punishment was "doing the WAIKIKI BURGER" the shake the ASS 1 round de.. Then yours is to make cookies for me.. *Cheater*  Yours so simple, mine so hard.. :P  ...We always call each other "ah ma" and "ah gong" in school.. That's the only thing we spoke to each other everytime we met in school because we are SHY right? hehehe... Then one perfect day, I move to another stage which is call confession. It was after my PMR which is 06/10/2006.. I'm form 3 and you're only form 1... It's been so long right? We've been playing a game call SDO together.. Then after playing, I've made up my mind to confess.. So, with all my guts, I'm feeling freaking nervous and I only use MSN to confess.. *Shy boy*.. I know i'm timid and now still a timid , usually with girls.

      Then this is how I confess, I pm her and say.. I got something to tell you.. Then i put, I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I I .. (Because i really couldn't type it out, i scare of rejection) .. Then finally, with all my GUTS , I said " I love you" .. I close my eye, hoping to see a good answer.. But you replied " I go bath first".. Till then, I was freaking scare i was reject because the way you answer. After you bath, you told me.. :) I felt relieved because You Love Me too.. :) Then this is where 06/10/2006 is formed.. As you know , I am a timid person, even we met in school, I still does not know how to start a topic .. So whenever I see you , I didnt say anything .. Just said Hi and smile,even after confession.. To be honest, I never change a bit at all.. Then one day, you ask me to said 7 type of languages of "I love you" .. I felt nervous, I don't know how to speak other language that time. Then I google for the 7 type of language, I still remember clearly in my mind. Then i said the 7 language, ( Saranghaeyo, I love you, Saya cinta padamu, Aieshiteru, Ngo oi le, Wo aie nie, Wa suka lu) This 7 languages... 1 more language you taught me " Jetaime" ...Wahahaha.. Both of us are so cute...

Remember the candles you make for me? K love P ... P love K.. hehehe.. And remember you ask me about do I believe in Miracles? I believe till now.. The island that have MIRACLES.. :) Thank you for giving me such memories and also a miracle. As we grow up, we learn to be better.. If you see and think back properly, we are trying our best to be the best lover. We tried to solve our problems .. We manage to go through all the obstacles. We've been trying our best for the 3-4 years ++... That's how strong we are and our love are. I remember you always ask me to sing for you before sleeping time and tell you bedtime stories.. Cute :)  Sorry that I can't manage it because I only know how to sing "Twinkle twinkle little star" and tell you the story of 3 little pigs.. I remember you said you like my story of 3 little pigs.. ( I think you geh geh 1, want make me happy, think I don't know? ) Hahaha! I remember I told you about a " Prince and A princess".. I don't think you can remember , cause when I was telling you the story, you was already sleeping like a pig. I know you slept already, but I continue talking but in a soft voice to tell you.. This story "Prince and Princess" was actually about "The journey of Me and You" ... And I ended it with, we both married and have a happy ending. ( I bet you dont remember cause you sleeping) hehehe...

    Our 1st date out was my birthday! :) 24!! Miracles24.. We went out together, and I sat a taxi.. A taxi to go there is RM50! From Klang to Sunway.. And back is another RM50!! Hahaha! The taxi eat my money... Then we had our 1st Nandos there.. My first kiss on my forehead.. *shy* p/s: get down lower.. Then I like "huh? what?" Then a first kiss on forehead.. :) Memories... I remember that night , before we go back... I hold you and hug you very very tight.. Because I miss you a lot .. I don't know how to describe the feeling.. Is like want to hug you damn tight and never want to let go.. That was our memory... That's how cute we are when we are in highschool... We are young, we are stupid, we don't know anything, we don't know what is true love. The decision that I made which is to LOVE YOU is Never a mistake, is not we are young, is not we are immature.. What I call this is " Miracles" , "Fate" and "Faith" .. Without all these, these memories will never be created in me. I know what's True Love. And I know who is my first.. My first is always you.. My first true love.. :)  Never regret on loving you. I only had 2 things to tell you which is:

1) Thank you for all the above memories, it's been cute and immature for both of us. I know there's many part I didn't mention, I didn't want to make it long. For eg, you love to bully me in highschool! You take my specs and you keep it.. Then I went to class without my specs.. I still remember it so clearly! Then after school , my mom ask where is my spec.. HAHAHA!!  :P

2) Sorry for hurting you.. Sorry for being stupid.. Sorry that I have fail the eternity and forever love.. Sorry I couldn't manage to make you the happiest girl in your life. Sorry I couldn't be at your side forever. Sorry that I couldn't protect you forever. I hope he will do all this. Not for me.. But for YOU.. :) Because I still want to see you to be the happiest girl in my life. Sorry for letting you go easily. That's the most regret thing I've done in my life.. But what pass is a past. I can't change back time to fix it. The only thing I can do is learn from mistake and be a better man in love, life and work.

I have learn my mistake. I will be a better man.. I will never repeat it again..

"Always make other people jealous because you have such a GOOD GF and NEVER make your GF jealous of others"

"Always be there for her, no matter how busy you are because once you lost it, you will start to appreciate it"

That's all.. " I love you"

When I was typing the story above, I was smiling because is so cute while playing "FM Static - Tonight"

I believe in Miracles.

I believe in Fate.
I believe in Faith.
I believe in us.
I believe our love. 
One day , I hope you'll be mine
Miracles24 :)


Miracles24.. Sign off..

Hmmm

Today is my 1st day of Internship~ :) Nothing much actually for today.. Just have some briefings.. Listening to what they explain about... what they expect us and so on.. The company profile... The holidays.. And bla bla bla.. Tomorrow only start the real work which have to type some descriptions for the product. After Internship, straight went for dinner at Damansara Tropicana Golf and resort.. A high class place... Attending wedding there..  Videos are shown , and everytime i watch the video, I think of both of us.. Haiz.. Have some songs playing such as nothing gona change my love for you...  Another song that reminds me of you.. Somehow I just miss you... Have many leng luis there, but it doesn't matter actually.... I feel like having you is more than enough for me already.. I don't know whether I should wait or not.. Hmm..   I really wish to wait till the fate come.. But I don't know whether will the fate come.. I must have trust in myself.. and believe in Miracles. Sometimes, I just couldn't stop simply think and I've lost confidence in myself, fate and also miracles. However, I will try my best to make myself feel more confident and so on...

 I just couldn't find the same feeling like I saw you for the 1st time , on other people.. I couldn't.. Is a feeling that describe your entire world. Believe me. Trust me. Like I said before, having you in my life is more than enough already... I really does not need anyone else... Haiz.. There's one last thing I'm doing.. After that thing, I dont think I can do anything anymore.. I wish I can do more for you but I need the "special day" to do. Otherwise I cant.. Haiz.. Anyway, I really dont know what else to say but to say I love you.. I really love you.. I'm not drunk ... I didnt drink any alcohol... I'm just freaking sleepy.. And I just typing out everything I feel right now , with my eyes half open...

 All I have to say is , I love you... I really hope one day will come.. I dont know when.. I dont know how.. Whatever it is... I will still be there for you... :)  p/s: You wont know how much you love the person unless you lost her.. We just have too much memories.. Everything I see, it reminds me.. Then I'll start wonder.... Sorry for being a jerk and sorry for being stupid last time.. Sorry for my stupid self last time... That's all.. Here's a song for you.. Old but it's really meaningful... The moon represents my heart .. Sorry that I Love you.. I know I shouldn't love you when you are in love with others.. Yet I still Love you.. Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry.. Just couldn't help myself from saying I love you so much.. Haiz... That's all of my feelings..

Once Faith. Second Fate. Third Miracles.   =)

Busy time?

Internship starts tomorrow. I don't know should I be excited or sad.. haha.. Cause when Internship start my time will be lesser. But I wish to spend my remaining time with the person I love.. Which means after 6pm.. It doesn't matter how tired am i , i'm going to make use of the few hours to be with the person I love. Definitely I will still be there for you, no matter how tired am i.. There's many thing I've learn throughout this few months. I've been thinking back on what I've done and all. I know I could do better than that. I can.. Believe me, I'll change for the better person in everything. In life, we make a lot of mistakes, but we learn from mistakes. I've made a lot of mistakes in my LOVE life, as I kept on thinking back, I realize I can do much better. There are times, I'm out of my mind. :) The past is the past. I will be a better person ..

 Even next time in working life, no matter how busy am i , I'll be there for the person I love.. Family first.. This is one of the reason, I'm not going for gym.. Because I want to have time, and be there for you and my family if my help is needed. =) All the best for my Internship tomorrow, hope everything goes well for the first day. Sometimes I love to flashback what we've done, the funny moment and so on. It just made my day but it hurts to know that you are not with me..  But I believe!! I believe in 缘分 and 奇迹.. Do you? :) 


Smile; Miracles24... Working life starts tomorrow! All the best to those who have started today. Always remember, I will still be there for you even though my life starts to be busy. Do not hesitate.. Believe it or not , I'm always waiting =) Cheeers  

Beautiful memories

Internship are about to start.. Time are constraint very soon... I believe destiny has brought us together on 2006... Fate has brought us back couple of times. And now I wish fate will bring us back again for the last time. I want to start a new life with you. I want to be a new person but still the always cheerful and lame , myself. I want to be the one who makes you laugh , and to make you smile. I want to be the one to make you feel like no one is better than you. I want to make other people jealous for you instead of you jealous of others. I want everyone to know that I love you a lot. I want to be your everything and I want you to be my everything. I don't care what others said about me or you. What I care is what you said about me. Sorry for the past, sorry for everything that I've done and the broken promises. The ONE and ONLY promise that I did not break is " I will love you forever" . This is the promise that is still standing strong. We always told each other our love will never fade and will increase day by day. You always ask me how much I love you. I always reply you I love you more than the universe and my love on you is uncountable. But I believe my love towards you is far more than universe. It's undescribable but only actions can prove it. There's many question on what should I do and what shouldn't I do is on my mind, I followed my heart. Your heart will lead you to the right way and never regret on your heart's decision. I never thought of finding new girls because is hard for me to find a girl like you to take your place in my heart. Finding a girl is not like choosing an apple in a market nor fishing a fish in a lake. Love is not a game. After all this, I finally understand how to really understand a person and love  a person. Not by telling her that you love her everyday. Is by listening and seeing what she needs and wants and use actions to make her happy. Words are just part of supporting your actions. The main things is action. Memories will never be faded and will be well cherish forever. I just want to start a new life again with you , if we had a chance. A chance to forget the past, forget the sadness, cherish the happy moment. And make the "Forever" happen. I believe in forever and I believe in eternity. I believe i could make you the happiest girl and i believe in you and myself. :) Smile. 


I've failed you once, twice and thrice. I believe is time to stop failing and I will never fail again. 


Quote: 


Like what you've said, is like what I'm going to say:
Just like my heart,
Is lonely yet,
full of beautiful memories that will never fade =)
I believe in miracles... ♥


I believe in Miracles too.



Miracles24


Here's a song that I've been hearing multiple of times because it is meaningful:
 "I'm still loving you"

Life's gooooood~

   Screw it.. Finally exam is over.. I'm happy.. 4 days straight of studying .. Headache.. Stress.. Stay up late.... But now is finally over.. Yeah.. I can sleep like a pig and party like there's no tomorrow before Semester 5 starts.. 1 more year to study , before I enter working life. Life will then start to be busy. Although how busy am i , of course i will find time to be with my loves one. That's a MUST for me... Back from my trip at Melaka... Only 5 of us went to Melaka but it's a fucking funny night and fun night for all of us. Our brother , Ong Richard is the joke of the day... All of us ate steamboat, play games and drink liqour which makes all of us a big high and drunk.. Especially ONG RICHARD!! Been laughing all the way till I sleep.. 2012 is near already.. Chinese New Year :) Oh yeah~

   This few days has not been thinking much about Love... Maybe I'm having a hectic week... Still missing you and sometimes even wonder do we still have fate left in us? Sometimes I tried to avoid myself from thinking so much... Loving you has no regrets but letting you go is my biggest regret. This is how life works, when you lost something precious, you'll start regretting.. When you are single, you feel relationship is better. When you are in relationship , you feel single life is better.. Whatever it is, I still love you.. I still remember the way you look at me, the way you smile, the way you cry and everything. :) All I have now is faith and hope. My door is always open for you :) True love never has an ending, true love never ends.. I agree with this quote that, true love does not need an happy ending, true love just never ends. When you love a person deeply, you will understand what i meant. How i wish I can be a playboy, whereby I can just love a person and throw it away just like a toy. But I'm not and wouldn't want to be anyway. If you love a person, love her completely .. Change to a better person for her.. Never break a promise... If I had a chance, i would do the best.. I will not be the same again because this regret has cause a big impact change in my life. I know more about love and how to love a person. If I'm in a relationship again, I'll make sure I would do the best for her. That's all. :)

Smile.
Miracles24

I want our love to be like a fairy tale which always have a happy ending.. I love this song so much..

What's life?

2 more days and exam are over.. I'm going to trips to Melaka after exam with few of my friends... It's been quite sometime we didnt go for a trip... Just couldn't wait for exam to over... 1 more subject to go.. Direct Marketing..  Hope I can do well in all my exams.. Hehe.. Anyway, moods have been swinging sometimes. My bad habit came back after few years. And I promise to you I wouldn't do it anymore.. Of course, I wont do it anymore.. For you, for my family and for everyone that I love.. 

   Time been flying so fast.. Still missing you day by day.. Although my expressions doesn't show it out, but inside I'm still missing you.. My emotions are back to happy again... Just need to think that , if you're mine then you will be mine.. Hehehe..Nothing much to talk actually.. All my feelings for now is I'm missing you.. Hope you are having a good life there.. You know I'm always here with you no matter what right? If you need me , I'll be there.. If you need my advise, I'll advise you.. Hehe.. Anyway, all i hope you is to be happy and cheerful.. Not the emotional 1 la ... Emotional but with reasons then is okay.. Don't be too naive.. You're a smart girl , i know that... This is all my advice and Be happy! Smile always kay? Because your smile is beautiful ... Always are. =)

Cheers. Miracles24

Last post before i go vacations :D

The reason i change is always YOU :D

Promise is a promise. I'll keep it.. I promise :D Smileeeeee

Time flies

Guess what? It's already December 2011... Almost 6 years already :\  Time flies :( We all have been growing up so quickly.. Just couldn't believe it.. Hahaha.. Still remember when you are still in short hair.. And now you've turn into an angel.. p/s: I didnt say last time you're ugly... HAHAHA.. I never regret loving you all these years.. throughout these years.. from 2005 till 2011.. :) No idea why. But I'm really into you.. It's just my feelings. People always say that our heart will change one day, but it's not easy for my heart to accept another 1. It can but it take times. But i don't want anyone to be replace you in my heart.. I doesn't know why, but i kept tell myself i want you to be mine forever.. Hehehe.. I'm still waiting for FATE .. Do you know that I always felt like bringing you all the place to eat? ( You always ask me would you take "me" to the place when you feel the place is nice to eat?) [p/s:yes]  especially with my parents like that day we ate in the Klang Parade restaurant.. I kept on thinking about that.. Hahaha.. And eating together with your parents. That's my feelings.. You never know how much you love a person , till you lost him/her.. :)

  Okay.. Exams are going to be over soon. 3 down and 2 more to go... :) Tomorrow is Friday.. Going to plan vacations with my buddies tomorrow after exam.. Can't wait for the vacation. Feel free to find for me if you have problems, even though I can't be there physically to help you but I'll do it mentally.. Hehehe..  Then start working from 9am to 6pm.. Plan not to go to gym, cause I want to have free time myself .. Have some things that are more important to me.. That's all for now I guess.. Time to study.

p/s: Missing you every moment, hoping to be your HERO everyday.. =)