Heylo~! I'm bored , so just let me type out my feelings and how i feel now. Alright~! This coming Tuesday is my final exam already. Till 06/12/2011.. Why everything must got 06? Hahaha.. Then after that, I'm going to penang with my bunch of best friends / brothers/ buddy forever .. I'm going to enjoy the food there. I think is like 10 years + , I didn't go to Penang already. =) Life is not as hard as we think. I manage to control my emotions already, I don't feel much emo-ness now.. A lot of my friends told me " If she is yours , then she will be yours" , in other words, FATE. If we are meant to be together, FATE will bring us together again. If FATE bring us together once again, I'm starting a new love with you , forget about all the past, and make it our new love. If and only if , we have FATE la.. p/s: Take care of the ring, if fate bring us together back, I'm yours forever and you're mine forever. No more letting each other go anymore. Stay with each other forever kay? I put the word "IF" , even if we didnt get back together, keep it as a memory because that ring was the last ring, so now only me and you have it =) .. hehehe.. One thing you should always keep in your mind is that, I will always be there for you. I know I've repeated couple of times, but I still want to remind you that I'm always here for you.
Anyway, I'm going to be very busy this few days, to study for my exams. So, feel free to call me/ text me / or facebook msg me when you need someone to accompany you okay? :) I'll be there for you. And my Internship is starting very soon , on 12 of December , so I'm going to work from 9am to 6pm.. Then I decided not to go for GYM , because I have some more "important" to do.. I think that is all about it! =) Good luck in my exams / your exams! =) And ALL THE BEST! Cheeers! =)
Miracles24.
Here's a song for you and the lyrics are all word from heart. I always express my feelings through songs. =D
Look at the lyrics and sing it! =) Smileeeeeeees =)
:) Balls, my exam always falls so near exam.. And our relationship always end before my birthday, most of time. I remember the 1st time you celebrate my birthday and I got a first kiss on my forehead in Nandos.. There is where our Nandos memories come from.. When I think of it, I always smile because I remember you ask me to go "lower", then I like "What?" Hahaha.. Then got a kiss on my forehead.. That was like few years ago when we are till in highschool.. Then after when we are in Uni, my birthday always falls on my exam, that is why we didnt celebrate much for my birthday. As we grow bigger , our life starts changing.. I miss the old times.. I remember you always used to call me at 11.24pm and all of the sudden wish me happy birthday.. So cute right? Hahaha! Hope one day , I can get this chance again from the same person.. =) For the mean time, enjoy life while waiting for FATE =)
Btw, this year 2011, I only had a chance to celebrate my birthday with my friend and family. So, yesterday, we went for dinner at Setia Alam KFC. Then they told me , they went to fetch Jin's sister.. Never doubt of anything, then they ended up bringing 4 piece of cake. I was a little surprise and few awkward yesterday but again thanks for give me a small surprise.. I made a wish :) Some of you might know the wish and some may not.. hehe.. Anyway, today I'm celebrating with my family at home.. Another wishes but my wish will remain the same.. Hehe.. After exam , there'll be another celebration at Cafe 1986 and drinking session at Setia Alam Overtime for my birthday celebration and my best friend celebration. =)
I wish ___________ :)
Smile~~ =) Miracles24
i <3 My life
Without you (2011)
I am lost, I am vain, I will never be the same Without you, without you
I won't run, I won't fly I will never make it by Without you, without you
I can't rest, I can't fight All I need is you and I, Without you, without.... You!
I can't quit now, this can't be right I can't take one more sleep this night Without you, without you
I won't soar, I won't climb If you're not here I'm paralyzed without you, without you
I can't look, I'm so blind Lost my heart, I lost my mind without you without... You!
Oh oh oh You you you Without You you you Without you..
I am lost, I am vain, I will never be the same Without you, without you, WITHOUT YOU
My password for my facebook and my taylors login ID (as usual) will forever remain the same.. Because is still yours, till the day I have found another one. I will never forget you.. I love you.. =) Whenever you are sad, I will always be there for you. Whenever you need someone, I will always be the someone. Make me as your 3rd priority since I can't be your 1st anymore.Remember we promise to keep money everyday for our vacation? Mine has reached RM1k already, but the plan fail. Haha. But always remember, you are still in my heart and every morning the 1st person I'll think of , is you. But I never frown anymore, I smile, not because I lost you, because I had you before in my life. =) That is what makes me smile. So you must smile too, dont frown. If nobody can help you smile, I'll help you.. Call me and I will always available for you but not when I am sitting inside my examination hall that time la.. HAHAHA. My shoulder will always be a place for you to cry and my chest will always be a place for you to sleep, if you need. Therefore, smile because tomorrow will be a better day.. Always remember, I am always here with you, even though we have been seperated. =) Study hard and have a good future ahead! Smiles =) =)
I guess this will be my last post, just want to make things clear. First of all, time will heal my heart of course. Then time to move on and not forget the past . I will move on but still in love with you. Maybe fate one day will bring us back together or maybe not.
I know my mistake. I know what is wrong with me. It's time to turn over a new leaf. Time to change to a better person. It takes time, but time is what I have. :) Although I have promise to change, I change but it got change back again. This time, I'll make sure it change, it will always remain change because I don't want to lose another precious person again.
I'm sorry! I apologize .. It's too late but at least i apologize and try my best to get it back.. Although i fail but i try.. So , I have no regrets anymore. Just to tell you , I still love you. =)You ask me whether i would chase you back even if you are with others, my answer to this is YES, of course, because i love you a lot.. FATE// =) Again, I'm sorry for my broken promises..
Cheers! =) I will never be alone as the ring with your name will follow me everywhere I go.. So, that's all.. I'll improve to be a better than as well. Thanks for all the beautiful memories and also your love all this time. My memory will never fade , so do yours. Anyway, good luck in your studies kay? Don't get too naive.. Besides him, you can always find me when you have problem in anything alright? =) Don't forget this handsome boy, Kelvin Say Chong Theng. Hehehe!
Last kiss , Muackz =D
Hear the song below, very nice =) , Believe me. M i r a c l e s
I believe one day, you will wear the necklace of the ring and come back to me. I believe in fate. I believe we will last forever because I want you to be my first and also my last. I believe in Miracles. I know you believe in Miracles too. =) If you are back again, I'll make sure I will hold tighter this time and never give any opportunity to others. I love you , forever. 06/10/2006 is the day that we fated to be together. You are first true love. I am not going to give up easily. I believe we are a perfect match like what people said. People once said, true love never have a happy ending, true love never ends. Do you know what it means? It means that my love on you never ends because you are my true love. No matter what, I'll keep my heart strong and wait for you right here, wishing one day you will come back to me with the necklace ring and tell me "I love you". Past doesn't matter to me as long as we are together.
Tea Pei Nee, I love you forever. I don't want to be your friend. I want to be your last true love .
I want to take care of you and support you till the day we are old.
=)
Bie, I miss you calling this. I want to call you bie forever. Bie, I'm sorry for everything I've done. I'm stupid because I didn't think twice of my action. Forgive me. Bie, today is 20112011. It only happens once in our lifetime. Make a wish.
I wish Tea Pei Nee will come back to Kelvin Say Chong Theng's side again, one day. I love you , bie bie.
I miss you every single moment.
I miss you when you are not with me.
I want to spend my entire life with you.
Do you know that I delete everything but I left the one picture ,videos and your voice recordings with me? This is because every time I miss you, I look at your photo, hear your voice and see your reaction in the video.
I wish to hold your hands, look into your eyes and tell you how much I love you. I love you without any reasons. You are perfect for me, although nobody is perfect. Perfection comes from LOVE.
I have many things to talk to you. I want to share my secrets with you. I want to tell you how much I love you and miss you everyday. I want to hear you say "I love you" to me everyday. Even you said it everyday, I will never get bored because I want to be love by you. Just you. I want to create more memories with you. I want to make you the happiest girl in the world. I want to share my happiness and my sadness with you. I just want you in my LIFE. I want to hug you when you feel cold. I want to go around the world with you. I want to spend my entire life with you. I want to make a dream house with you (If you remember) .. I miss eating with your parents in your house. I miss following you around. I miss see-ing you washing plate and I tried to hug you. I miss going pasar and you always say you want to eat this and that and i call you pui po.. I miss your cuteness.. I miss everything.. Bie, I love you. Sorry for not making my move earlier and it's too late.. But bie, throughout all these months, I never forget you and my love on your never fade at all.. All I have to say is Da Zhu Zhu love Xiao zhu zhu and will wait my Xiao zhu zhu come back to Da zhu zhu :)
All I want is YOU , to be in my life. My life is never perfect without you. F A T E , please bring me back together with her . She is the girl that I love when i am Form 3 while she was Form 1. She was the same sport house as me, which is RED. Her favourite colour is RED. She love to eat BBQ Plaza, Chocolate Banana Cake, Hot and Roll, Nandos. She is the girl I love the most in my life. She is the closest girl besides my mom and sister. I want sing our favourite song with her. FM Static - Tonight.
I miss your smile
I love this picture. Created by you.
While we were young
Valentines day
Do you remember? I love this picture so much
Sorry for being a cry baby.
I just love the way you are.
I love the way you kiss my cheek.
Love to camwhore? I love to camwhore especially with you
Last but not least, I love when people tell us we are perfect match because I know we are.
Waking up early in the morning, and start to miss you. Then i thought of something, which i want do something for you which i never did before. How the idea was started , is i remember you ask me "Buy a bouquet of flower and you'll run and i chase you with the flower" haha.. Still remember that? :) Then i thought of buying flower and start googling for the meaning of roses. Thought of buying 9 or 11.. Straight after that , I bath and start searching for flower shops. Went to Klang Parade shop there but the shop was close and then tried searching for other but couldn't find, so i call-ed my friend to ask. After that, i was told that near the eng ann there have 1 flower shop which is in one of my friend house . It was shifted from the Klang Parade shop to there.Then I bought 11 purple roses. The reason i chose purple roses is because it's nice and because of lavender. At first, i just wanted them to deliver for me. Then after thinking for so long, i prefer giving it myself because it is more from heart . :) Then I went all the way to Jusco "Silver Dragon" to purchase a similiar ring as mine, because you told me you threw it away.And guess what? The ring was the LAST. I don't know should i call this Fate or Luck but still I thank GOD for getting the similiar ring again. So i bought the ring and also the necklace chain to turn it into a necklace ring. Then i went back to eng ann to collect flowers.After that, I call-ed you to see whether I can drop by to see you or not. Then, I went to your house. Holding a bouquet of rose , necklace on the rose and also a card i wrote. I gave it to you. I never expect you to say anything, i just want you to know that throughout all these 3-4 years, my love on you is never fake and will never fade that easy. Action speaks louder than words. I realize my mistake and i do the things that I should do earlier and not now. After giving you the flowers, I felt very sad all of sudden because i realize the girl standing in front of me is the girl i love the most and treasured the most who i have just lost few months ago. I tried my best to control my emotions but i couldn't help it but broke into tears. And there you gave me a warm hug. I tried to whisper"I love you" but i couldn't said it properly. Even a strong man will cry. Cry because not a cry baby, is because you lost a person you love the most.
I just hope that FATE will bring us back together someday and I believe in Miracles. Miracles is you and me. I only want to say a 3 simple words which is I love you. Somehow i feel that my love on you is too strong and will never fade. I just couldn't describe how much i love you last time until I really know that I have lost you.
I love you , very very very very much.. I love you till that nobody could replace you. I love you till that nobody will love you like how I love you. If i had a chance again, I will love you by actions and not words. This I can promise you. As you said, when we together back, we will change, but now I promise and I swear that I will never change ever again. You will always be my 1st priority. I always love to regret after i lost you. That is how ridiculous i am. Btw, the necklace ring that I gave you is for you to wear when the FATE bring us back to my side again. Keep the ring safe and secure till the day you are back. I will wait for you to be back, because i know that my love on you will never fade.. =) I will always be there for you, when you need me.
Did you know that the ring I am wearing now has your name "Charene" carve on it? I will be waiting for you till the day you come back to me, and have my name "Kelvin Say" carve on it. =)
I Love You , Tea Pei Nee. You and Only You. =) Smile always and Be Happy. Miracles belong to me and you. Do you believe in Miracles?
Miracles24 = Miracles19
Nothing gona change my love for you. The song you sang to me, I wish to hear it again from you, Tea Pei Nee one day AGAIN.. =) Cheers, Smile..
If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go
(Chorus 1)
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you
(Chorus 2)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
(Chorus 3)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Yeah.. I guess after thinking so long, I'll take my mom advise to "let go".. She told me, If i didnt let go, how will i get a new one? But still i never lied that I love you and I want you to be mine forever.. But you already let go of me.. I'm like just holding on , on myself.. As you all know, easy to say, harder to do.. But of course, I will try my best to let go.. Whatever it is, our love depends on the FATE.. Let the FATE decide.. Wish you all the best in everything and good luck with him.. :) I'll just carry on with my life, till i find another special girl like you.. :) Study hard, Work hard.. And not to forget, enjoy life! Letting the person go for their happiness is another way of loving.. =)
Goodnight! Just to tell you 1 last time, I love you.. Wo aie nie.. :) Aishiteru.. Saranghaeyo.. Saya cinta pada mu.. Jetaime..
Short story: Girl : do you believe in Miracles?
Boy: Maybe? :\
Girl: Do you know that there is an island outside there full with miracles?
Boy: ya meh?? OMGGG.. *I believe it*
From that day onwards , I believe in Miracles and this is how my miracles nickname are born. =) Although it sounded lame, but Miracles started from you .. Miracles24.. Loving you is another miracles for me :)
Everything is like a dream... Can it be a dream? I want it to be a dream, so everything can be over soon... Someone please wake me up from the dream.. Slap me till I wake up.. Everytime i think of You and Him, i always wish i was dreaming.. I felt i had no chance at all anymore.. I feel sad.. Haiz.. But have to stay strong and always smile..
Can i change the fate? Can GOD give me back my precious 1? I really love her a lot.. More than everything else. She's my 1st true love.. And I want her to be my last.. Please , GOD, return her to me.. I would do anything .. Maybe live shorter life? As long as i am with her i am happy enough...
I'm just typing everything out from my mind.. what i feel and so on..
I will always love you... 06102006.. The day I fell in love with you without any reason.. I believe is not we are too young and immature, i call this as FATE.. I met you when you are form 1... You got a very short hair and dark skin.. I love to tease you that you love my friend.. After teasing you so many times, I fell in love with you.. Then I tried to make my move, getting closer to you.. We start from messaging till midnight and this is how our LOVE is form. Then you grow from form 1 - form 5 ..OMG.. Time really fly so fast... Have been seeing you growing and as we grow our love grows.. Obstacles here and there, we face many problems.. During University life, we have more problems.. Haiz.. People always say that when people are exposed to the world , they will tend to fell for another person.. But why i cant? I cant love others.. Even i love, it will never be as deep as OUR love.. Maybe we've through for very long time.. I want to go through everything with you .. I want to hold your hand, till the day I die.. I want to hug you in my arms.. Put your head on my chest.. Thats all I need... Just to LOVE YOU
I do not know why.. Everytime i feel emo and all, i will start to blog.. I guess this is the 3rd blog i have created. Why I emo? I cannot understand myself at all.. Why must I everytime lost the person I love the most 1st only i will start regretting after that. One day, I saw my most precious person holding another person's hand.. I felt a fucking hard object just stab through my heart.. I'm not blaming her for that because it's been 3 months we have been seperated. Where have I been? What did i do? I only concentrate on my studies. Why did I even say breakup to her when I dont meant it? I don't want to break up, is just because when i saw the thing that i shouldn't see, i felt so sad and jealous. I couldn't control my emotions. And I said BREAK UP.. If I had a change to rewind, I would like to turn back time and take back my words. I guess is too late for me already because she had found another 1.. Everytime i think of her and him, i couldn't simply.. my mind start to imagining stuff .. You got it? To tell you the truth, I dont think i call myself a MAN, I cried multiple of times few days.. I watch the video I made, I've cried.. Memories kept on flashing back and back,,I feel like SHOUTING, I MISS YOU SO MUCH.. AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH .. PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME ALONE.. I really do love you a lot.. You are my first and always tell myself I want you to be my last.. I miss calling you BIE, Baby , zhu zhu .. Haiz.. I miss every moment with you.. Seriously .. You are like my entire world already.. You know what was my wish for my every 24 november birthday? I always wish that , I want to be with you forever.. Throughout these years, that was my wish.. My wish never came true.. And 7 more days is my birthday again..
I feel like it's going to take very long for me to forget you.. I dont want to forget you anyway.. I want you to always be with me and by myside..I want to grow old with you.. Hug you in my arms when you are cold..
But is over.. Just hope i have chance again to be with you if Fate really bring us back again.. I just know that in my heart , very rare girls can replace you in my heart.. Like i said, you are one in the million to me.. Whatever it is, I just hope he will treat you the best and never hurt you like how i did.. Saying this hurts me so much but i still have to say it.
Once again, I want to tell everyone that read my blog that, I love you.. I love you , Charene Tea. I love you Tea Pei Nee.. I love you , biie.. I love you , I love you and I will always love you. If fate brought us back again, I want it to be eternity / forever.
I know I promise i won't be sad.. But sometimes emotion cannot be control.. All of sudden, i went to watch the video and sing along with it till the rivers flowing down my face .. That's all i want to say.. Have to concentrate on my studies too :) Cheers
The ring is the only thing i left.. I'll wear it everyday, as if it was you, where you are always be with me.. I will take care of this ring and protect it , because its the only left memory i have with you.. :) Thus, this ring represent YOU.. :)
